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25 May 2016 @ 09:01 am
I have been gone a while  
UPDATE: I ordered some diet pills today, I can't wait for them to get here.

I've moved from FL to WA and my wife is now in-in the military. She even is done training for her job this week - I think today actually.

I got a great job here in WA at a local Spencers in the mall. I love it tons. The hours are awesome (as they are super minimal so I don't have to go out often but just enough).

I was doing well prior to my wife being out of bootcamp/tech school. And so was my wife actually. We were both so great looking. Then we moved up here- the move has been so stressful. Adjusting. We've been able to eat and I am able to cook (which was/is something I love[d] to do). But now I'm hating myself for it. I cook too much fatty foods. I cook too much crap. And my wife is now here to watch my intake every night and she's back on this habit of insisting she knows how much I'm supposed to eat (which is oh-so annoying) and now my thighs are big sand filled balloon sacks of fat and disgusting crap...

I don't know what happened, when I gave up or gave in or why I did what I did- giving in to food and eating and not caring. I don't know why I stopped working out- we tossed out all the old sauna suits when we moved and now I can't sweat. The weather up here is wonderful but not as good for breaking a sweat. I'm alone and in this house I feel like there's all this food- weed is legal which is both good and bad... I can smoke but I get so hungry and I indulge again and again and again and I think I'm just that much closer to being back at the weight I once was. I can't see my ribs anymore.

I hate myself again. More than before.

Going to buckle down and get back on the train to skinny. I just hope I'm not too late...
 
 
 
xanganorexicxanganorexic on May 27th, 2016 01:56 pm (UTC)
which pill did u get? let me know if u like them
Reclusive Words In Cursive: pic#89802527reclusivewords on May 28th, 2016 07:43 am (UTC)
Tropical Garcinia

As soon as I get them I'll let you know